Heartbroken ... ...

... ... 5 years have passed in an instance ... you shouldn't be dying this fast ... Not for another 30 years ...

My buddy, a terrapin known as Red Ear Slider (RES) is dying of lung infection. It is one of its kind, being intelligent and responsive to its favourite owner. It is also the most playful and energetic terrapin I have ever seen. Now, it is lying there cold as rock, its once energetic legs and forearms were limp and still.

I was full of guilt and frustration. Why didn't I stop feeding them their pellets and fed them something else instead ? My terrapin, Jade was a beautiful terrapin, always hungry for more food. It ate a lot of things like cauliflower, carrot shreds, prawns, bread, dried shrimps and fish. However, as humans, we often assume what our actions are right and beneficial to others. Those food were not meant for terrapins as those food were like junk food to them, equilivant to us eating hamburgers for every meal of our lives.

It was not right ... I should have known it soon. Things came worse when it fell into the toliet bowl head first. It drowned and almost died. We saved it and took it to the doc. It soon became more healthier. Sometimes later, it fell into the toliet bowl again and never recover. It didn't eat for days, weeks, even months.

We brought it to the vet and the vet gave it injections but state her situation was not good. She was dying. I was devastated. Now, as i am typing the blog, i peer into my kitchen toilet, hoping it to rejuvernate and crawl around as usual. But again, it was just the darkness and the limp body of my RES. Rest well, my friend. I will always miss you.

Humilation = Motivation

Humilation is equal to Motivation. I get the feeling of humilation many times before and that is the source where all my motivation comes from.

It is true that humilation is a pretty nasty thing that can happen to you. But trust me, it is a great source of motivation to inspire you to achieve greater things.

Here is a personal example of me learning things through humilation. I was learning language at a moment of time and there was this friend who tested me those words before a quiz. I was pretty confident and I was kenna humilated because I did not do everything correctly. Then my friend laughed at me and say that I was not well prepared at all.

Well, I was pretty embarrassed and hung my head like a defeated dog. However, when the test came, I could actually remember the words quite well and I did well on the test. The reason that I could remember those words are because my brain stimulate me to register those words sub - consciously and I sort of getting better grades than my friend who tested me on that day.

I have to give credits to my friends to make me understand this theory that humilation = motivation. As far as I am concerned, when a person is humilated or tends to land in an embarrassing situation, he / she tends to remember throughout his/ her life.

I was thinking aloud, instead of avoiding teacher's questions and hide behind your friend's back, why not be brave to stand up and answer teacher's question. Classmates may jeer and laugh at you, you may have been humilated by the awkward situation, but try to be strong and bear the humilation, for humilation etched deeper than just memorising those theory stuff.

Trust me, I have gained a valuable lesson on this thanks to all those who laughed and jeered at me during class.